Day 34

Today is one of those days I wish I could go back to bed and start the day all over again!! First, MSN doesnt really work with my husband all that well.. when we talk sometimes the messages dont get sent and our conversations get cut short. Then I find out our cell phones got turned off today! Now I have to come up with 200 dollars to pay the bill to get the phones turned back on. And figure out a way to pay our car insurance! Seriously?! I just want my husband home!! I miss him and I just need a hug or something.. I feel so alone right now. Raising a baby while your husband is deployed is soo hard! I feel like I am losing it right now!! Less than 3 months I gotta keep trucking on! For David and Gabriel. I just need to get away...I need to do something. Im sitting here balling my eyes out! Feeling so sorry for myself!
Sorry my blog is so depressing today...Im just so upset!

Day 31

Today was a so so day. I got to talk to David on MSN today, and he had a terrible day. I hate when he does, because I just want to be there for him! He is so strong though, I know he can overcome anything the Army throws his way.I went to pic up Gabriel's pictures today and they are cute! I am gonna have to send some to david. After that we went to Starbucks with one of my close friends Rochelle and she is Gabe's Godmama. It was fun! We had some coffee and talked for a couple of hours and Gabriel fell asleep. It was nice to get out of the house. Not doing too much tonight, gonna go to the bookstore with my mom and have some coffee and walk around with the baby.
I watched a great movie today "The Might Heart" Excellent movie! Im having a good time with Netflix! I couldnt imagine not having it..It makes the days go by faster!
Well I will be writing soon!

Month 1

I cant believe my David has been gone for a whole month already! The BEST part of it is, We talked to day on Skype and he tells me he has good news, he is coming home EARLY! Over a month early! Before my birthday. My birthday is Feb 26th. So it totally made my day!
He got transfered to another camp, he likes it better there, but unfortunatly the internet sucks there. He does have his own room so thats good, he finally has his own space to just get away.
Gabriel and I are doing good. He turns 3 months on Tuesday! I cant believe it! He laughed the other day only twice and hasnt done it yet.. Im so waiting to hear his giggle again.
David and I are going to be trying to get pregnant when he gets home from deployment He wants his boys to be close together in age.
I am still planning on heading back home the beginning of december, i have to take gabe to his dr's appt and pick up some stuff for David and come home. I will only be gone for 3 days at the most.
Well there is my update! I will be writing soon!!

Day 22

Well here we are, 3 weeks into our stinking deployment. Gabriel and I are doing good. Missing David so much it hurts. Trying to stay as positive as can be. Nothing to exciting going on here. I am planning a trip to the zoo soon and Kennedy Space Center with Gabe! Its funny how a 27 year old best friend is a 10 week old baby, but honestly without Gabriel in my life..I would have gone crazy already.
David is doing ok, missing me and the baby like crazy, of course.
I bought Gabe some sunglasses and he is so adorable, I love them on him. It makes me smile! I cant believe how big he is getting already!
I hope everyone is well! I will be writing soon!!
Here is a pick of me and Gabe at the pier looking for dolphins!

Day 19

I know I havent been on in awhile. I have just been so focused on hearing from David, its literally all I think about. Dont get me wrong I have my computer on ALL day and ALL night, I will talk to my bestfriend Jennifer and we keep eachother company.
So my husband got there ok and he is finally at his deployment destination. Unfortunatly they dont have phones yet and cant use Skype. SO no more video chats with the baby and that really sucks! I am patiently waiting for him to get phones hooked up over there so I can hear his voice again.
Nothing is really happening over here in Florida, just trying to save money as much as possible.
Gabriel finally rolloved over for his first time lastnight!! Best believe I was a very proud mama!! He is finally starting to laugh, but not a belly laugh, but he is getting there.
All in all, I am just trying to survive this deployment. I didnt hear from David yesterday, so I am hoping to hear from him again, I dont think he would go that long without checking on his baby boy. I will post soon enough!

Day 14

I never thought I would miss my husband so much. I know I shouldnt be doing this, but I literally cant leave the house!! I have my cell phone for him to call me as well, but I still cant! I feel like a prisoner. I am so used to having my hubby to talk to about everything!! Now he is gone and I feel so empty and alone..its literally unberable, I cry myself to sleep.
There is so much personal problems going on right now, I dont know how to handle all of it and him being gone at the same time. I have no one to talk to, or I try to talk to them and they are so busy or just dont answer back. It really hurts because I am always there for everyone!! I guess it means I should just start focusing on myself more then everyone else now..and its really a shame. All I know is I want my husband home and I need to feel loved again..This is really starting to get to me in more ways then 1.
He is good, finally got there..so thats good. I am waiting for my phone call now. Missing him so much, my stomach is in knots. I really wish people would just understand and just listen to me.
I miss him so much....Im crying now. How can I survive a few months if I cant survive 2 weeks...

Day 11

Gabriel and I made it to Florida on the 1st of Oct. Today is our 1 year wedding anniversary and I am missing my husband so much! I think the stress of everything was getting to us, we got into a fight today but I am so glad we worked it out. I miss him so much I dont know how I am going to get through the next couple of months.
I thought coming to florida was going to be exciting and fun..and I was going to hang out with friends and stay busy. Since I got here I havent hung out with any friends or done anything. I sit in the house all day with the baby. Money is still really tight and I am just so depressed still. David hasnt even gone to where he is suppose to be, he has been in Spain for the past 11 days! He was only suppose to be there for 24 hours, so we havent been getting any extra money which is taking a toll on us. I am hoping when the stress dies down and we can start paying stuff off, I will feel better and feel like this deployment has meaning.
Gabriel is doing good, He is enjoying being with his grandma, he is getting spoiled everyday! She loves to take him around her work and show him off! I would like for us to be doing things, I just need to think about what to do. Well I just wanted to update everyone on us and I hope everyone is doing good!! I will be writing soon!!

Day 8

Gabriel and I made it to Florida ok, Its going to take an adjustment getting used to it here and not being at home. I never thought I would say how much I miss being home, when I complained about fort bragg before.
I got our room all set up and Gabe is getting used to everything. My mother is IN LOVE with this baby..he is already spoiled!
Dont have anything exciting planned for the near future. I just talked to the hubby and I am kinda upset because he feels that he doesnt have to call frequently to check on me or the baby and I am really hurt/mad at that. How can you not want to call your wife and son while you are gone for so long?! I am having a hard time understanding this. I hope it gets better because I talked to him about...so hopefully it will change.
Thats all so far... I will write soon!